This song came out of my inability to let things go.
It begins with a complaint of sorts, a “how long” question. I had the perspective that I had treated someone well and been mistreated in return with absolutely no impact on the conscience of the guilty party. I was impatient for justice, and unable to shake the impact the situation had on me.
The most important part of the song for me is the bridge. There are sound bytes from my life that I allow to stay on repeat and those sounds and voices tell me lies. I realized as I was struggling with this thing that had been said to me in the past, that I really wanted to be over it. I wanted to let it go even more than I wanted closure.
It occurred to me that I was not on that path. The path I was on had kept those words replaying in my life long past the time when their source was even around. I thought I was haunted by something outside myself, but really, I had taken ownership of it. It was me who was prolonging this experience now. Once I could see that, it went a long way in eliminating those voices from my life. Jaron and I sat down with a few lines I had and he came up with some images and music that fit perfectly for me.
Will you haunt me when you die?
Will you still haunt me when you die?
Will you still invade my very demeanor?
The weight of your words still bend me low?
I would never make you cry
You know I would never make you cry
I whispered a cloud for your protection
I whispered a sound your ears will never know
All these dreams echo in
Empty halls forgotten
All these tears a vapor
You are unhaunted
I could never make you cry
I know I could never make you cry
Your face unchanged, my words unheard
Arrows shattered against a stone wall
What a waste that I still listen
What a waste of precious time
I can hear the words you spoke
As if you were the maker of my mind
Did you keep what you took from me?
Can anyone keep what you took from me?
It’s the dust that falls beneath your feet
released September 15, 2015
Katherine Kamin: words, vocals
Jaron Kamin: words, music, bgvs, production, guitars, base, keys
Adam Mormelstein: drums
Hollie Chastain: artwork
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